We are truly enjoying our summer so much. It took a couple weeks for the kids (well, and me) to get used to Hudson being around all the time again, but all of a sudden it just clicked. I’m not saying that there’s no fighting (there’s definitely fighting!) and that everything is sunshine and rainbows, but it is back to the way it was before he ever went to school. And it feels good. I love having have both kids here all day every day. It fills me up.
Although we are enjoying our summer, I feel like I’m putting too much pressure on myself to make it unforgettable. (Is that a mom thing or am I a little crazy?! Don’t answer that.) Maybe it’s because I have such great memories of summer as a kid. I grew up in a perfect neighborhood for kids, was surrounded by my best friends who lived on the same street as me and spent most of my time swimming in our pool. It was magical and perfect and it seemed as though summer lasted forever. Now because of the early start date of school it feels too short and as though I’ll be sending him back in the middle of summer. I’m constantly dreading the day that he has to leave us again and it seems like it’s approaching at high speed. I’ve never felt like this before…like I want to absorb every second of time with him because he’ll be gone soon.
Everyone told me that once my kids started school I would get excited to have them home for summer, but that I’d be more than ready to send them back at the end of summer. I can honestly say that I don’t feel that way at all. In fact, I love having my kids around so much that I’m often contemplating homeschooling them. My husband hates the idea. I think it would be amazing. It’s not something I think will happen this year though. Maybe never, but a girl can dream. So in the meantime I plan to keep enjoying every minute of this beautiful summer. We’ll keep crossing the fun off our Summer Bucket List, eating too much ice cream, staying up past bedtime, running through the sprinkler and making our own summer magic. Right now summer you are my favorite.